# 31 - Tragus undetected Day 5

I think that is a pretty good effort. If i wasn't getting more of em i'd think that i'd get away with atleast a month...hehe...I'm so screwed LOL...it's like i'm walking into a deathtrap ><"

So i worked today. The more i stay in the job the more i see the bitchiness of it. The people particularily the shitty hobbo supervisor is a completely cow. She's so dumb and she thinks she's top shit -.-' LOL she doesn't realize how foolish she looks and we always have a good laugh at her expense. i don't care as long as i get paid!! Plus the other newbies are so nice and we all get along pretty well :)

Anyways i need to start my 5minute speech. Wah =( I really CANNOT wait until this assignment is over. It's just been a dark cloud hovering over me ever since we got it!! I'm gonna be OVER THE MOON when it's finished..LESS THEN 48HOURS!! WOOOOO!! i don't even care about how shitty i am at it...i just need it to finish.


Just need to print the poster now n maybe stay up tonight n finish it...wah! i forgot to buy some Vs today :(

yay uts parteh thursday to celebrate end of assessments. Perhaps it is about time i go to one of those things :)

#30 - Rambling Days

I don't have much to blog about. I just need something to do to get me more awake. I can't think of much that has been happening. Trying not to do much seeing as I have so much schoolwork to do and yet I waste time and don't even end up doing that. 4 days until the assignment is due and finally i'm doing it ><" I hope i can get this poster printed on friday.

I ended up picking Spain as my preference for my major. I'll leave it up to chance i suppose.

Today Karen and Laurence came up to me and asked me to explain what happened that friday night. As they did, I felt my eyes loose focus/shake and vertigo. I can't even talk about it...That scares me...What about if i have some real disease? As stupid as it sounds, I'm too scared to go to the doctor's to find out.

I am looking forward to next Friday. Not so much because it is a great deal but because I feel it will help me deal with some things, even if it may cause me unnecessary stress and drama in the long run. I REALLY need this and that is why I can't wait a few months or even a year. It needs to happen now. It hardly seems like a choice really, it's like it decides on it's own.

Bring it on ^^

# 29 - Not So In Control

I got home at about 1am and it was wonderful. Babysteps are sorta working and i got yelled at to the extreme... i think it went for more then an hour but even that was good :)

Today was going well too until moments beyond my control had to intervene ....I ended up walking around alone for a long time afterwards n then heading home later in the night with my hair smelling like cigerettes...

...my assignment is due in a week and i haven't started...exams are in a few more weeks n i haven't started....

*sigh* starting is the hardest part xD