#11 - New Year Hopes

So here comes another New Years. As we get older the years go by so much faster and that thought scares me just a little bit o.O...

Looking back over this year i must say that...i don't know...It wasn't my best and not much happened for me personally. Though i guess i've grown a little bit i felt like most of my changes came around 2005-2006.

So this year like all years i feel a sense of misleading expectation and temporary motivation. So what should i wish for? For some reason i can't really think of anything.

Resolution List

1. The typical: Loose atleast 5kg + get healthy...i can handle that in a year right!?!


2. Start to learn piano and maintain it


3. Keep interested in whatever i do education wise


4. Make some new good friends and keep my close ones


5. Grow a passion for something ><" a leisure activity/hobby


That is all i can really think of right now =/

ps. Yes i am aware that i am overloading on that cute lil emoticon thing!! but i think i have EVERY one of them now and they sum up everything perfectly

#10 - People you hardly know....

It is quite something, when you THINK you know someone for years and then you learn something about their past and, WHAM everything changes. Suddenly they seem a lil bit stronger, a lil bit more 3d and instantly you understand small characteristics about that person that out of no where will pop out and they aren't the person you thought you've known for years ><*

I won't say it is a bad thing when that happens. But it sure is startling...It makes you wonder what you really know about people.

It only gets bad, when you can't think of anything to say in return to this intimate and exposing information



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# 9 - Christmas comes closer

And i was completely unaware of this revelation until i opened msn this morning and saw Fireman Joe's msn nick o.O...

Well the Malayalee (my Indian Language peoples) Association has been going christmas mad. The last time i saw them there was a drunk santa, screeching music, stuffy indian BO and children jumping about waving plastic guns around (which some dumbass gave too all the bratty kids as presents) that made stupid grating noises whenever they were 'fired'. It was just like a scene from Blood Diamond (awesome movie!!).

I swear, those people have sniffed to many Indian herbs or something. If there is such a thing as the Anti Christ, I think the Malayalee Association are the Anti-Christmas/Santa Spirit...Seriously they drained the 1 mL of christmas joy from me -.- they came barging in at 10pm, many of the guys drunk, wives and snotty nosed kids to sing some random song...and i won't go on about the how traumatizing that was for my ears and then left in a huff before drunk 'santa' stuffed some lollies in our hands after giving me some strange looks when i did not show amusement.

Christmas in India is pretty cool. These troops of people go around with drums and elaborate masks and sing up and down the street and often people spark this mini fireworks on the front yard...when i was younger the santa-masked people scared the crap out of me! Trust me, they are really creepy looking but as i grew older it was nice seeing a lil bit of the colourful culture in it ^^

But please...replication in Australia just is terribly wrong in comparison.

#8 - Happy Bday LouLou + Work Again

*checks time*
yesterday was Louisa's bday. i hope she had a great day ^^ But it sounds like she had some awesome plans. Anywayz i did meet with her for lunch. We ate dumplings at her house with xavier, and phil A + BigB came later. We sorta just bummed there. I wennt online blahblah...

I really cut it close getting home at 5.40...i needed to get to work by 6. I am one of those people that tend to be 10Xmore efficient after pressure is added to the equation....some call us Procrastinators.

What ever you want to call it, I raced through. Found my work gear, ironed, combed and applied and was off and got there at 6 EXACTLY!...I'm too good :)

Well wish i could say the same for the rest of the day xD Did a few mistakes...i learnt a few more things today too...i keep spilling the curries over when i go to pick them up -.-' i'm totally gonna get fired...

Anywayz, i talked to a few really nice people there. One dude was EXACTLY like mr what's his face..the sci teacher that doesn't like biology and would burst into random singing *mind blank* This carbon copy kept joking around and then he gave me a tip which was nice ^^. Those who accompanied him, i think it was his wife, her mother and himself and i had a nice chat while everyone else was gone. They seem like such fun and happy people and knew how to have a good time.

There was a guy that was dining alone. I dunno but i hate seeing people eat alone, its okay if its like maccas or something. But at night, at a restaurant i always feel it as a air of loneliness to it, especially when others are laughing and talking on other tables. I was planning on striking a small and quick conversation but i was REALLY busy at that time and even the small snippets of pleasantries we exchanged, sounded a lil socially akward.

I know i shouldn't fangirl here (i have another blog for that)...but wtf? Kat-tun is ALREADY releasing another single(they just released one in November). Woot! i'm happy and excited to see what they've brought us ^^ i cannot wait for the pvs too *giggle* They really must be working their sexy kabooses off!

I think i will read a few blogs and then shower. Was it just me or was today EXCEPTIONALLY hot. I think i sweated a litre just sitting on the train and then another litre in people's food when i was working...

I hate this weather =/

ps. sorry i don't have much interesting things to note today. Really i just need this blog to pass the time during my horrendous sleeping habits..

#7- UAI + School + Lunch + The Bethlehem Experience

So today, in order...

UAI
I had a dream that i got the mark i did like a few months ago..and i remembered that same dream last night..and lo and behold i was right!!...i thought i was just being wishful but still i'm good with it.

School
So i got to school because i was being bribed by BigB (aka bhargav the sex muffin) and guess what!! he had stubble!! i bet he wore it just from reading this blog (post # 2)*cough*...it was a lil bit like 2-3day trimmed vagina...not freshly trimmed so it was slightly dissapointing to the touch
=(

and THEN he goes out and gives me my porno (aka japanese magazine). I mean what is this boy playing at?!!?..it was brilliant. I had a quick skim today. I quite like this photoshoot. My eye twitches at the thought of the poster remaining neatly folded in that magazine and not gracing my walls.
Oh mangs...bahaha i should like...stick it on the roof of the bottom bunk of my bunkbed so i wake up to it every morning *cackle*.....*eye twitches harder*

*slaps self*
Anywayz, i also got a awesome necklace from Louisa...it's so purdy and i want to wear it all the time ^^ It's got these lil purply/pink dimonties and is like a butterfly hanging of the necklace by one of it's wings.


Lunch was a bit weird...everyone talking at once and too hectic for any forms of proper conversation. It reminded me of a monkey habitat at the zoo where they accidently fed caffiene to the chimps instead of water. i was famished and scarfed down my Oportos in the blink of an eye. Afterwards, everyone was deciding what to do and Anna and I ended up ditched the group and having a lovely catch up session on one of those random couches in the plaza with chips and a slushie. It was a lot of fun to talk and talk. I think everyone else that was sitting there was pissed off at us and thought we were stupid and bitchy the way we were talking hehe. Still it was a good time.


The Bethlahem Experience was interesting.It is performed by the Penrith Christian Life Centre. I was impressed with the effort that went into creating this large scale nativity scene. It was a lot of fun and would interest and attract non-christians and i found it was so realistic. It smelled and looked real ^^. Basically, it is this sort of maze that looks like a mini city and you go through this tour with your guide who also is acting as one of these people, all the shops and stalls the towns people talk about what they are selling and then lil snippets of gossip about a baby being born..then you go in and it goes through the whole birth and then quickly death and reserrection...I thought it was really cool ^^ i was going to be a extra in the 'play' but i couldn't be bothered.

At the end of it some normal guy started making a speech about ABC. A = acceptance B = believing and i forgot what C was coz i sorta zoned out by then. It was a very cliché talk which was made even more patronizing by the animated sign language the dude was performing which his hands...

Still it was good. My mother and I had to wait a good 1.20mins for our tour (because it is rather popular to attend) and so we had time to talk about stuff...UAIs n uni and things...obviously moments got a bit annoying for both of us, but still it was a eerily drama-less moment between us which was quite odd. Calm before the storm maybe?

Anywayz it was fun and i should head to bed

#6 - Sleeping Habits + HSC results

So it’s 2am and my sleeping patterns are just out of whack. My parents do not let me out of my room late at night for some reason even though I don’t make much noise -.-‘I think it is a ploy to make me fall asleep. Unfortunately, such a plan has failed…upon going to bed one time at 1.30am I ended up only falling asleep at 6am ><’ it was SO boring, but I guess it is a good time to think.

I think I’m at my best in the later hours of the night and early hours of the morning. I can concentrate a lot more and focus on what I am doing. I’m not even going to attempt to correct my horrendous sleeping times. I’m just going to let India screw them up some more and then I’ll let them settle once I get back…no point correcting something which’ll just get fucked up again xD

I’ve made a few pen friends and the opportune time to write is at the hour of 1-2am. I just sent of the few letters + x-mas cards to my pen friends + internet pals yesterday and I just finished another letter then. I’m being a rebel going on this computer to blog…
I’m really hardcore like that =P

So HSC results are out in like 3hours o.O. *dramatic music*…
Though just yesterday afternoon I realized I have no idea where or what my pin number. So much for that <_< I’ll call some hsc peeps or something. Not really sure where I need to go with this.

Well either way, in a perfect world everyone I know would be pleased and satisfied with their results. Even though this is definitely not a perfect world, I’m still going to wish you all the best =)

Remember *guru voice on*: things happen for a reason, take what you have and try to make the best of it that you can. It’s not about what you get or what you have, but what you do with it. Am I right? *hugs*^^

#5- Favourite YouTube Clips + Old Greg

I thought i'd change this to favourite clips on youtube. I'm sorry that they are mostly japanese related. I haven't used youtube for other things lately seeing as i can get other things normally -.-'

As i go through my account I can see my inner fangirl is a lil exposed but bare with me, i think maybe i'm the only one that finds some of this funny but have a look :)

Robot Chicken

Human Tetris (there are more, go through the list)


NEWS (another boyband) getting zapped Prt 1...
I had this dled raw (no subs) but found out it was subbed yesterday.


NEWS getting zapped Prt 2



KAT-TUN Related
I love that kat-tun are just dorking
i know -.-' very sorry to show these)

Back when they were 'juniors'
0.51 secs gets me everytime..oh maru xD


Maru Beatboxing on a rollarcoaster


Ueda hitting himself with a ball...and then composing himself while still managing to look good


VideoClips

This is not a vidclip but a part of their concert DVD 2006
Butterfly by Jinda (Ueda + Jin)


Eh dun wanna show more...it's pretty embarressing eh ><"

Now what are some of your favourites?

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So since my cap has been lifted and now i am free to roam the world wide web with a reasonable amount of speed...and lookey what i've discovered *chuckles*

Randomest thing ever..

It's so disturbing that i've forced to watch until the video ends o.O

#4 - Xmas + Shopping (pointless babble)

Today i woke up violently by my mother's (Hilter The Second's) screeching...As far as i knew it was a Monday. The blood drained from my face when i came to the horrible realization that she was taking a day off *insert bloodcurling scream here*

It ended up being quite convinient as i was going to cancel my appointment with the orthodontist as i had no way of getting there. I lost my retainer two weeks ago and my teeth are nearly crooked again -.-' Sif plastic would cost $65 *waves fist angrily* and sif make it all tiny, clear and easily loosable!?! Anywayz i went and got an impression done.

It was like every other morning of my life...wake up feeling like i want to die in a hole, head too cloudy to move faster then a snail and any noise instantly makes me aggrevated. So when the stupid orthodontist decided he would shove the plaster mould crap down my throat with such violence i couldn't even let out a scream or move and i was too tired to be pissed off by this point...he probably gets some secret pleasure in hurting others, i swear, the actual braces themselves have rarely hurt me ><...Still he could of atleast worn his grape flavoured gloves. They are the best ^^

Then my mother thought we'd look around for some random xmas decorations to hang on our sparkly new plastic tree...It has been a long time since the tree was taller then me. Say maybe 7 or 8 years :P I think it was about that time i lost my christmas spirit.

Christmas sucks. For me it just means i need to go to church for a extra day, a lot of fake smiling + feigned interest and more food to eat. I would forget about christmas entirely if i never went to a shopping centre from November onwards. All those sparkly decorations and gifts just screams "look at me! let me increase your credit card debts and create a few stress pimples on the way".

Well my mother and i were successful in our search for those lil bauble things to stick on the tree and some christmas cards to send to the folks in the homeland. We also went into Millers. The clothing store my mum buys most of her clothes and we came out with 2 dresses + 1 skirt for me instead hehe...Well they are purdy, i wonder if i'll ever wear them. =/

Aaron as usual successfully finds ways to stress me out through casual conversation. Something which SHOULD be impossible as 4u is over now and also school but aaron ALWAYS finds a way.

I TOTALLY forgot that the hsc results come out on wednesday. WED-NES-DAaAaAY!! For some reason in my mind i assumed it would be a Friday.
...but No.
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Wednesday...holy crap ><'

Good luck everyone. Best of luck!! <3

#3= India looms ahead

...yuck.

Every day or so i'm reminded that i will be going to india soon. A scent, a colour, a bumpy car ride xD, a sound...i dunno...but everytime i just think about how badly i do not want to go. And you know the memories come back and i get this horrible feeling in my stomach.

Perhaps it will not be as bad as i expect it to be.

I'm REALLY greatful that i've had a chance to travel and see other places. I'm also exceptionally greatful for being in India during the tsunami and seeing what it had done. I feel so much more appreciation for what i have even if i still whine and complain sometimes i just remember...

I would never take any of what i saw or experienced back but i dunno, i just do not feel comfortable going back.

Atleast i can drown my sorrows in the wonderful food there...Indian food here does not compare to the indian food there. Maybe it's the overly spicy air or the summery heat or their traditional methods...oh man i'm actually getting hungry thinking about the rhoti + butter chicken and mutton biriyani...omg >< and their chickens are always fresh there..and the difference is obvious...*drool*...oh snaps i needa eat a lot of gulam jamuns...

I promise i shall count how many times i get told 'you have gone/are so fat...you will never find a husband ' hehe...i'll make a tally and everything!! Someone remind me before i leave!

Thinking of my survival guide for india has sorta failed seeing as i do not want to take anything there that i may loose...Probably just a blank notebook so i can talk to myself to prevent going looney...but i guess by that point that ship would have already sailed Dx

Whatever...don't want to think about it...

i leave on the arvo of the 19th Jan. If someone would kindly shoot me before then i'd be forever greatful.

ps...i guess it's only 5 weeks...and it may not be as bad as i suppose...
I hate myself for not being comfortable in India. I really wish i was, but i'm just a bratty middle class western wannabe and i just can't help it ><

#2= Second Day on the Job + Stubble Love

So...Second day proved just as nerve-racking(is that the word i'm looking for) as the first but once Dexter left it was actually okay. Things were going smoothly and i was keeping up with the pace of things. There was minor screw ups with giving out food but that was the kitchen and not totally my fault.

As expected one fob family came in and the granddad kept looking me up and down then he spoke in hindi..and i said "oh sorry i do not speak hindi" and then he just laughed and stared at me the whole night...which concluded in the other 4 people that he was sitting with to stare at me intensely and in silence...it was really annoying and i was trying hard not to notice...i suddenly felt i was back in india.

When i brought out some freshly warmed plates i warned the family that "the plates are(were) hot so please be careful" and the dumbass older son or cousin or someone, mimicked me going "oh no the plates are hot"...and then touching his and pulling away dramatically,stupid dickhead i wanted to burn his face with his plate...But walked off smiling to myself as i imagined the lovely scene in my head :) *cackle*

That boy is going to stay single forever..maybe that is why Indians still have arranged marriages =/. Otherwise the other guests were really nice and friendly. I talked with one aussie guy about what i wanted to do in university and he said his son just finished year 10, When i was serving them earlier his son looked pretty attractive, like one of those guys Sepalee would like hehe. They are apparently regulars so hopefully i will see them again (the older guy not wanting to see his son haha)^^. It was not that busy today but busier then yesterday.

Mr Isaacs is a lil scary but after Dex + Mrs Isaacs + His lil sis Gabz left he was actually nicer to me. I wonder if Dex told him to be? Either way, i think i get that he isn't actually mad, it is just his way i suppose.

Oh another thing...Dexter came in yesterday with this lovely stubble (you know where a beard goes) and said "er i'm not so presentable today" i went *gasp* =O...

Stubble...loveliest thing ever...it made him 0.000000000000001% sexy to me...When normally he is 0.0%. I kept touching it...If you close your eyes it's just like a freshly trimmed vagina but on someone's face ^^. I begged him to keep it..but he only will for the weekend *tear*....good bye sexy stubble.

I LOVE stubble...I could get stubble ugh indian genes But i resist such urges for the good sake of humanity.

Speaking of sexy, Bhargav has bought me porn Potato Magazine. So now i can hold pictures of my lovely Japanese Boybands in my hands ^^ He said he felt like a fag when he was walking around buying it...i love him X 100 for getting it! eek can't wait.


Wow they look so tired >< I wish Ueda(far left) would eat more -.-' It's a good shot of Kame (middle one) though. The others look like they are going to faint from exhaustion.

#1 = New Job

So i do not have much to blog about...my life is quite boring 99.99% of the time so sucks to be you reading my blog ^^ oh..and welcome xD
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I am working for Dexter now...stupid boy...To think i am the one who normally bosses him around and suddenly he is bossing me around. I've never seen him bossy and annoyingly nazi before but he has suprised me. While he was scrubbing a table i thought i would take out my revenge by slapping his behind. Unfortunately i forgot that his mother was there too -.-' I just kept walking and didn't look back hehe. Also i was trying my hardest to open the freezer..you know using my whole body and everything...until i turned around to see Dex and his mama looking at me and then i looked back and realized i was pulling from the wrong side >< haha

I do not know how long i shall last before I've fired from this waitressy sorta job. I suck really bad xD Hopefully after a few more shifts it may get easier. I was there on a NON busy day and still i found it a lil tough to do everything at once ><

i mean do you REALLY need so many different shaped glasses for different drinks?
-.-' And Dex nearly had a heart attack about the knives and forks not lining up with the table edge.

They sorta told me basically what to do, i'd do it and then told me better ways to do it aftwards which is good because now atleast i will remember them. God i'm such a slob so the idea of me being aware of things lying around and cleaning up...i never thought i'd see the day..hehe

Atleast I was fed by the end of the night when there was nothing left to do ^^ Butter chicken and Buttered Naan (i know how to spell that coz i have a menu with me hehe)It was really good and it was fun having Dex there after a while ^^ Though i think i was more nervous about doing things because he WAS there at the beginning of the shift -.-' You know more self concious and that...

Hazaa to yet another new blog ^^