# 34 - ......

You know life is good when friends = people who change the subject when you really need to talk...

Effing brilliant -.-'

#33 - Day Out after CBG =)

Today was great!! After stumbling through my dodgy Cell Biology and Genetics poster, Milica and I went down to that salad place and ate lunch and then headed down to darling harbour.

We just layed on the grass for a few hours n rambled about random stuff. It was really relaxing. After that we walked around until we spotted The Chinese Gardens and decided to go inside. It was really peaceful and tranquil!! After walking through the whole area and taking photos we just sat for a few minutes in silence. We went out for icecream after that and spotted the water park area in front of Maccas...haha we took of our shoes and just waded through it! lol everyone was looking at us but we felt very carefree. Finally after walking around some more and taking inappropriate photos with many a statues xD we headed down to French Riviera and sipped on some iced chocolates. It was really great....

I barely felt like heading to work after that but i walked past the CBD to work...and it even got better! my habbo supervisor is away for a week :) I wish i was working more because today was so relaxing and it was such a great atmosphere without her!! Everyone else agreed too...Yeah we talked while we were waiting for people to pick up the phone and such but we did not perform any less...In fact i got more surveys then i have before for that particular assignment :)

It was excellently relaxing today!! Tomorrow (or should i say today?!) is going to be tough to get through Biosphere though =S especially since i haven't done my research yet! hehe...

It's days like yesterday that makes you appreciate having university smack bang in the city xD

#32 - Some People....

...will never know how much I care about them or appreciate them...
Like you can't really express things like that eh? =/

Jacko totally made my night. He said everything i needed to hear and as i was reading it tears were just rolling down my face because he was saying what i needed to hear..he'll never know how much that affected me or how everything he said was absolutely perfect.

Even if we do not stay in contact for a long time, I'm SO fucking glad I met him. I think it was just one of those things that happen just to lead to other things.


<3

# 31 - Tragus undetected Day 5

I think that is a pretty good effort. If i wasn't getting more of em i'd think that i'd get away with atleast a month...hehe...I'm so screwed LOL...it's like i'm walking into a deathtrap ><"

So i worked today. The more i stay in the job the more i see the bitchiness of it. The people particularily the shitty hobbo supervisor is a completely cow. She's so dumb and she thinks she's top shit -.-' LOL she doesn't realize how foolish she looks and we always have a good laugh at her expense. i don't care as long as i get paid!! Plus the other newbies are so nice and we all get along pretty well :)

Anyways i need to start my 5minute speech. Wah =( I really CANNOT wait until this assignment is over. It's just been a dark cloud hovering over me ever since we got it!! I'm gonna be OVER THE MOON when it's finished..LESS THEN 48HOURS!! WOOOOO!! i don't even care about how shitty i am at it...i just need it to finish.


Just need to print the poster now n maybe stay up tonight n finish it...wah! i forgot to buy some Vs today :(

yay uts parteh thursday to celebrate end of assessments. Perhaps it is about time i go to one of those things :)

#30 - Rambling Days

I don't have much to blog about. I just need something to do to get me more awake. I can't think of much that has been happening. Trying not to do much seeing as I have so much schoolwork to do and yet I waste time and don't even end up doing that. 4 days until the assignment is due and finally i'm doing it ><" I hope i can get this poster printed on friday.

I ended up picking Spain as my preference for my major. I'll leave it up to chance i suppose.

Today Karen and Laurence came up to me and asked me to explain what happened that friday night. As they did, I felt my eyes loose focus/shake and vertigo. I can't even talk about it...That scares me...What about if i have some real disease? As stupid as it sounds, I'm too scared to go to the doctor's to find out.

I am looking forward to next Friday. Not so much because it is a great deal but because I feel it will help me deal with some things, even if it may cause me unnecessary stress and drama in the long run. I REALLY need this and that is why I can't wait a few months or even a year. It needs to happen now. It hardly seems like a choice really, it's like it decides on it's own.

Bring it on ^^

# 29 - Not So In Control

I got home at about 1am and it was wonderful. Babysteps are sorta working and i got yelled at to the extreme... i think it went for more then an hour but even that was good :)

Today was going well too until moments beyond my control had to intervene ....I ended up walking around alone for a long time afterwards n then heading home later in the night with my hair smelling like cigerettes...

...my assignment is due in a week and i haven't started...exams are in a few more weeks n i haven't started....

*sigh* starting is the hardest part xD

# 28 - I'm officially a working girl ^^Y

woo! well i haven't actually started working but i will soon. I've been warned i will be bored enough to quit though =/ So we'll see what happens haha...either way it is good money so it must be pretty horrendous for me to want to quit ><" I'm in telecommunications as one of those research people hehe...I know what it is to be annoying *poke poke* so seems this job is good for me :P

I have exams coming. Exams are poo :( Currently it is really hard to predict what sort of marks i expect to recieve =/ Oh how i miss the predictability of high school classes. What is worse is that i can't even start some SERIOUS memorizing study. I just sit staring at my textbook thinking about random things and next thing i know i'm asleep dribbling all over my expensive pile of paper!! I hope i can get my act together soon or it will not end well..

I will not be suprised to fail atleast one subject in first year but i would prefer it not to be in first semester =/ I think i'll just feel really set back.

I had a good chat with anna over a facebook message. it was fun to hear what's been happening with that girl. I can't wait to see her in a few months!! =D I'm so pleased that she's finally booked the tickets..it seems that the time she returns is getting closer ^^..

My parents freaked out at me about the whole job thing. I've been yelled at everyday about something in relation to it. I wish they'd stop being so unstable about things and just support me when i need them to...and not try to be so supportive that i don't do anything.

Isn't it better to learn from one's mistakes instead of just taking what other people say as gospel? I think it is important and they don't understand that. Well i better get back to this biospere crud...

WORST SUBJECT EVAAA! (after stats of course)

# 27 - Some people are plain stupid...

These guys are so ignorant and immature sometimes....i love being immature as much as the next person but god! sometimes i just want to punch them. Even if they aren't personally attacking me it bugs me so much...

I wish they would fucking grow some brains...


I'm dissapointed

Maybe I should distance them.

# 26 - Procrastination is a stubborn habit.

So i'm sitting here with about 3hours left in my 6hr break. I think i shall go upstairs as soon as i finish blogging for a bit of a snooze or maybe some study. Whichever comes first ;)

My last couple of weeks have been pretty bland. Nothing has happened and the stress of university is mounting even more!! I really want to see people :( Blah university friends are boring me as of late...haha i've been here for too long already :P

I've had the WORST luck this week and i dont know why! its so strange.
Sunday i had a really bad fall pulling on my pajama pants..YES I WAS PUTTING ON MY PANTS AND I STACKED IT REALLY BADLY!! ><"...i never do that and atleast that was barely anything really. On tuesday i go to university to loose both my phone and my textbook (n i think my sunnies...still not sure but atleast i got a plush pig toy named pikamishi out of it xD) Wednesday i went back and got both my phone and my textbook back...today i got up to get off at central and my plastic bag with EVERYTHING inside it ripped so dramatically...it was rather embarressing and i had to stumble out barely making it out on time....then i sat in lecture and i heard the back of my sole half come off my shoe -.-' grrr...so now i'm walking around with a broken shoe + my back breaking from holding everything in my arms and shoulder.

i see a pattern in all the random n small shitty things that keep happening to me every second day...i'm ready for it.

damn you karma!!

# 25 - I was violated....

by a 10 year old...at my family friend's first birthday party. ><"
It was suuuuuch a boring night. i went early to help decorate and put up streamers and shit. People came. The Hindi music was blaring. The kids were pissing me off. I yelled at the kids. The food was good. Took a tonne of it home with us ...mmmmm oily goodness.

As i was cleaning up at the end of the night one of the bratty boys started hugging my arm and rubbing his head against my arm...i was like 'wtf' *shove*...and then he tried to hit me -.-'...

University is a poo. The actual content is fine but when things like quizzes start coming around its a subconcious thing to detest whatever it is. At this current time i am NOT a fan of cell biology. I thought it would end up being one of my favs but i think chemistry (god forbid) may be getting there =S

The only thing i'm looking forward to tomorrow is seeing Gabrielle at Usyd Toga Parteh(if it happens). When school ends, you realize who your staple people are. <3

# 24 - How Strange...

Today i've had the strangest feeling of....'sungadum'

It really is the only word to describe it and i have no clue why it is there ><"

ugh. please go away Dx

# 23 - Fustrated

...I can't stand being at home anymore. It's so bloody painful to hear anyone in my family try to speak to me. Every week it gets to me more and more. I really don't want to be here. It's like i'm constantly on a leash and i'm living my life but i always need to keep tabs on coming back home and keeping my parents from chucking hissy fits at me. Even though i'm used to my parents being rather strict for some reason it's REALLY getting to me lately.

I just wish that i had a li bit more freedom. Maybe it is because i need to explain to all my new friends that i can't exactly go with them to places that they invite me too... They don't really get it and i guess i don't either but i'm still the one that need to live with it.

/emo hima xD

# 22 - Still Alive

I feel myself getting used to the routine of uni life...
hehe yet i still don't know where my schoolwork fits in xD

I would like to find another job...but seriousy where the hell does all my time go!? o.O Starting this week i'm trying to do all my work at school....considering i have 20hrs of breaks it should be alright. For now all i've been doing so far is my prelab and postlab work which is not difficult at all.

I've been told by some new peeps that i gave the impression that i am snobby/bitchy...and then there are some girls that just keep kissing my ass...Both are equally irritating. There are only two exceptionally odd people that i've met...and only one of those i try to avoid with a passion...

Now that i get along with a majority of peeps in my lecs/pracs i can afford to start hermit-ing during my breaks.

Hmm...i want to join the Vietnamese society!! I may just need to look into that =/

# 21 - University

is....great!!

Lectures are a bore...pracs are hard...but the people i'm meeting are interesting.
It's been a lot of fun so far.

...i'll be sick of it soon enough ;D

# 20 - The Indian Series /3 (Indian Television)

For a while now i've been watching stupid Indian tv...god it's HORRENDOUS!! They have their version of Australia Idol but it's called something stupid like something SuperStar challenge etc...Anyway the type of singing is Indian classical. You know all those annoying high pitched chickas and note changing all the time. It really gives me a headache and yet i've had to sit through it everyday while i stay at Rosamama (Aunties) house.

Even though traditional Indian music is bad, i'd take Indian over traditional Chinese anyday. I mean have you heard that stuff!? The first time i heard it i wondered where the the giant mutant cat's were fighting and then i realized it was just a itty bitty china man...having a ceasure?!

Well anyways normally every night i pop in my (sister's) mp3 and stare at the screen while i listen to music which reminds me of the days when i was a computer bum. Bt today my mp3 has has died on me. The torture never ceases D*x

After the show i watched a movie and there was a big dramatic moment about a mother feeding a different baby. She couldn't because it was emotionally distressing, even though it meant her mother in law would banish her.

Big Whoop! The kid isn't going to grow up thinking "woah i sucked aunti prasdeep's nippys"

Or maybe she would, i know i've freaked out once knowing that i chewed my mama's titties in this lifetime. And that i even came out of her vag!! So my face has all been rubbed in it!! o.O

In my opinion my mother should not have boobs, a vagina or even red blood. that's just nasty and makes the world seem like one crazeh place!! *shivers*

#19 - The Indian Series /2

The day I wrote that blog, i was wearing what i call my preggers tee. It's sorta tightish on the breasts and loose below. As i'm a bit of a chubbybubby it REALLY does make me look preggers x\d

Even though i got stared at just as much, i got more laughed at this time. I wanted to clutch my lower back as the pregnant do but I didn't want to be too obvious to my mother.

As i wear different things i get different reactions. Rather interesting to observe. Today i wore my black flower top n black 3/4ths. I think what i wore this time would be considered more stylish? I got called at by more bikies this time. I gave one the nod and suddenly they were not so macho lol...they couldn't figure out what to do. The bus ticket guy wouldn't even look at my face when asking about my ticket. Something i noticed as a size8 was that i was more a hit with the youngins but this time it seems i tickle the old married dude's fancy as i size 14.

I did not even know these losers even had a preference to be honest. They really do go for any ass. The compassionate side of me wants to start a crusade and give out free porn in the street. I wonder if there are many people here that have never orgasmed ever =/ Like the chickas i mean...Like they get married off and only have sex when it is planned for children.

Hopefully not many, I mean this is the Kuma Sutra (sp?) country after all ;)

# 18 - The India Series /1 (Going out in public)

So it is Day 3 in CurrieLand. I can say the experience is definately different to what it once was. You know when people say that only when you are older will you appreciate your culture more? Well i think i've already reached that age just a little before leaving.I'm sure some would not believe me but it is true!! ;) I was more curious about it and i definately want to leave the country and experience things. My experience here is already different and i feel it really is something else to what it used to be. Is it any better? I don't know yet.

Now anything i say about India, i say in reference to MY india. The other curries i know are from other parts, and i am quite sure they have different experiences to me...But screw them i'll be speaking from what i know and that is Kerala.
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I finally have left my auntie's house to go grocery shopping with my mum, my cousin and her. Now if you go out in India, you KNOW you will be stared at! So I thought i would go in something a little controversial. Screw cultural understanding etc. In Australian standards my black jeans and long pink top may not seem like trouble but in India you may as well be nude. My larg-ish sunnies added to the "zomg a alien" look and where last time I was so insecure that i would rather snort chilli powder then go outside in a land where personal space is non-existend this time i realized I could not give a rat's ass, and it even may be a little fun.

The reactions i recieved were various. It is no understatement in saying that all eyes were on me. Cars and autoricshaws actually stopped, school children giggled, bitched (i don't think they know i'm a native speaker), were offended, perved and some were just genuinely curious and when i smiled back they smiled back in intrigue and real friendliness.

The guys of course were as nasty as ever. Especially the older kind. Some dude on a bike yelled out "hey sypen penneh" (hey caucasian girl) and i was also followed. We went into the supermarket which is about the size of two english classrooms (at PHS) and lined up to buy our food. When i looked behind me our line was suddenly consisting of males 30+ quickly staring away from my ass or boobez...I guess the older ones like their girls big? o.O One guy actually had the gutzo to shift away from the line and right up to me and just stare...Instead of feeling violated though i just smiled which startled him a bit.

The shop assistant was too shy to look at look up and answer my mother because i was doing nothing but smirking right at him.

When we went into the mobile phone shop to ask about a sim. My mum didn't have any local ID and said "Nyan ivideh natipaul allah" (i'm not from this land) and EVERYONE in the shop went silent and anyone sitting stood up simultanieously (except for me). It was definately a weird moment o.O

After we took the autoricshaw home and my mother had paid and everyone was going into the house, i was the last one, i thought i'd just have a bit of a laugh at their expence as i always do...So I made sure to look at the driver as i adjusted my bra (you know how you do it outside of your clothes) and went inside with a forced straight face. I thought his eyes was going to pop out of his head.

Whether i disgusted people, offended them or allowed a perve it's amusing to think that they notice and will remember me as they crazy person they saw that day.

I've learnt to take what once was a horrendous situation in India into a stupidly interesting experience. It's nice to see how much i've changed and i like the person i've become ;).

But this is just Cochin...I wonder what the other towns will be like =/

# 17 - Finally at Singapore!

So i've reached singapore. And using up their free internet as best as i can before i need to leave again for another 4hr flight. I HATE hopping from plane to plane...I get this really dizzying feeling. Well anyways, so far i haven't died yet which is a nice sign :)

I watched 3 foreign movies
1. Closed Note (which was rather good)[japanese]
2. Secret (which sucked ass)[Hong Kong/Manderin]
3. A Long Night In Shangai (this movie was so cute and awesome) [Manderin/Japanese]

Singapore Airlines really has a good selection. They even had some johnny's playing xD I think there is something VERY wrong with the air in the airoplane. Like you know how it curculates and it's super cold! gosh...i couldn't stop sneezing! I spent the most time breathing into my blanket.

Hopefully i'm going to survive the next flight =/ We were flying for 1.5hrs extra this time around because of the weather, which caused us not to be able to land. It was nasty turbulence Dx I LOATHE FLYING!!

And it sucks ass that i can't actually GET OUT into Singapore =( I love it in all it's scarily fake manmade asthetics! *tear*...and just a Johnny's store WITHIN REACH Dx

Please keep me up to date with what's been happening with everyone :D
Talk to you all soon!

# 16 - University Offers Are Released

So i got it.

I had a massive fight with my mum and i'm helping my mum pack right now and there is a lot of tension. I'm as happy as can be but ...sheesh i feel like i've just gone through some massive distress.

Well gotta get back to packing..

Oh btw i'm in

Medical Science/International Studies at UTS

#15 - University Offers Tomorrow + HS Moments

So tomorrow is when we find out which university course we are successfully accepted into. *shivers*....shit! Seriously, just....ugh...no!!
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I am going to copy Phil with his high school memories list just because i got rolling after reading his. Please don't bore yourself with reading it...it's more my own self rambling ^^

- Meg, before she was cool and shortheared sat into a bin...legs in the air and all ^^

- Olivia and my lunchtime moments + Senerio

- Hacky Sack was awesome when we got really into it...aw i'm gonna miss it =(

- French class + "i don't speak chinese" *chuckles*

- Rape Me The Game (especially with Amy *faints* )

- The Bitchiness with the Asians- Junior grades

- Math class in senior years

- Sitting on a boy's toilet bowl lid with a hyperventilating Tanamma and Rach K

- Trying to make extra cookies by adding more butter -.-'

- Camp at night with Louisa...we were so hyper and everyone else wanted to sleep Dx

- Recalling that the first words I said when meeting Dexter was "god you smell! put some deo on already!" and being good friends ever since

- Being great friends with Gabz after deciding to make the obvious move of sitting furthest away from her...(god i was a bitch)

- Sending notes around class ALL THE TIME! + The LetterBook

- Hating PE but getting my revenge on the jocks through Dodgeball :)

- Bhargav + David + Amy + Edwina + Me = Best English Moments Ever

- Gabrielle + Sepalee hardcore fighting around me...this is still on going

- Anna and Louisa's bitchiness with me in the middle ><"

- Danushi + Me: Having the sewing machine blow up in our innocent faces

- Tuesday Luncheons with Danushi...'what's the goss?'

- The Apple Incident. god that was so long ago!! Some dumbasses were throwing food through the window so we threw it back down...then threw a apple and closed the window and....yup

- Choir in some performance thing...standing smackbang in the centre with Mala laughing our asses off throughout the whole song!!

- Skipping Chem with Sep and just lying on the grass in the back and having a great DnM

- Lying on the same grass with Gabz and staring at the sky on Wednesday Arvos

- fangirling over Twilight and Post Secret with Ashley bahaha no one else gets it!!

- Busbay moments

- Self-learning about this Japanese Crap during the hard parts of HSC and having grown a network since then o.O

- My toilet in the toilets...

- Having many people ask me about puberty questions...during puberty and after.

- Staying up ALL night and day on msn and sometimes with the DnMs...
Those are the funnest ^^

- Staying up with stresshead aaron during E4 and then practically jogging back to school to hand in our final product and feeling that ENOURMOUS sigh of relief

- Laughing so hard until we cried, sometimes for no reason at all

*sigh*

# 14 - Bored

I have done NOTHING at all lately. So boring...

oh btw I'm going to India on the 19th Jan - 22nd Feb.

Yesterday i got this cute package from my netfriend ^^ She bought me a tourist booklet on Shiga and some flyers on movies. A lot of them are American movies but they are Japanese ads for them....it's a lil weird to see o.O...Still it was really nice ^^ We did a bit of a present exchange. I gave her a small booklet on Koalas, it had a lot of cute photography.

I also got my hair cut. I haven't had a hairstyle for a while, but now i just got it layered. Before i had it a lil layered but it grew out long ago. The place i went to, down High St is quite good, they told me how i should cut it and it is quite cheap. I will probably go there again. I have been told my hair looks like Ms World Hair -.-' Erm...I can't tell if that is bad or good.I really like my hair straight with this cut but when it is curly, it's gonna be shocking ><"

I also bought a cap and did a few things like sending letters and returning library books...zomg i havent seen anyone in ages!! it's killing MeEeEe. I did make friends with this girl working at the Sushi House. She's going into yr 10 at Girra. I asked her to pick a flavour of 'bubble tea' i keep hearing people drink this stuff so i thought i'd try it...so we talked a bit and once i had it...ugh it was weird...The actual tea tastes great but the lil beady bits were not so good ><" I ended up leaving all those bubbles...don't see what the fuss is about with that drink.

Goodluck in your preferences guys! I hope you all find the right path to take eventually...I bet a lot of us won't even stay in our first preference xD

# 13 - Insomnia Teaches You Many Things

I've learnt how to make small card houses ^^ I couldn't even stack two cards together when i started!! i ended up working on it fora few hours lol!

when i can't sleep i'm not allowed out of my room, so no internet or tv to pass the time...

Check out what i've accomplished :)




...and then i realized it was morning

...next time card houses become a matter of life and death, i'll be set =D
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I also some ended up learning about this...
Trepanation
http://www.bmezine.com/news/people/A10101/trepan/

holy crap...

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And alas here i am again with nothing really to say or do...just needing to waste time...i guess i'll head to bed soon ><"

# 12 - University Open Days

Did anyone go?

It was alright...i feel a lil confused but i am sticking with my preferences.
I still need to change them today, last minute.

LOL i'm actually more nervous about forgetting and the preference time ending!! i woke up this morning and something told me not to do it. But i'm seriously not doing anything rebellious...

I'm not going from saying i'll do a Sci degree to a music or architecture one or something completely off the original plan. I'm just adding another on there. So really...i'm not doing anything bad...

right?